Lament of the Mind

I’m uncomfortable, lonely, and feeling unloved tonight. =\

Are many of you familiar with Maslow’s hierarchy of needs? I find that it’s been pretty accurate as far as life’s been concerned for me. Skipping the “sex” step of the base, I’ve become satisfied that steps 1 and 2 are secure enough. I’m looking at that third step, though… Friendship, family, intimacy. I have so little of those things. It’s absolutely eating at me, the loneliness and…dissatisfaction caused by not having anyone close to me, at all.

I want to change it, so very bad. But the “how” of it, I just…I don’t know. I can’t leave my house often. Even if I could, there’s nothing in a 20mi radius to do. I don’t have anyone I can really talk to about it that understands, I don’t have anyone I can connect with on more than the most superficial levels…and it’s causing me so much pain that I’m almost nonfunctional.