The power outage last night really fucked with my head. I’ve been flooded with images and feelings, memories and panic. That level of silence made my brain go haywire. I nearly had a full-blown paranoid panic attack at 3 AM because it was so silent that the sound of my own heartbeat was driving me insane. I ended up having to get up and read just to shut out the panic.
It doesn’t help that everything I see, everything I read, everything I so much as glance at today is setting me off. All my barriers built up over the past four months fell down last night. I feel like I’m one stray word from going into full collapse mode today.
Seriously, the things setting my mind off today are crazy. I wish I could talk about some of it here but I’m just so not comfortable with that. Which…is sad. I need someone to absolutely pour my heart out to. But I can’t trust anyone enough yet.
27. Chaotic Neutral INFP, techie, Blizzard gamer. Possibly a shitposting robot. Anti-authority, anti-fascist, far-left radical.